end of the summer is here

Well the end of the summer is almost here now. I go back to school this coming wednesday, its weird going back to college but im excited and looking forward to going back to getting my degree.  the next couple of weeks are gonna be hectic because with me starting school i still have the kids and all their stuff they need to get done before they start school. For instance they have pictures next tuesday night and then they have their open houses before school then getting them on the school schedule with their sleeping is gonna be a challenge. Keira gets her pictures back next week already i can't wait to get those back. the weather has been really nice the last few days i hope it continues to stay nice during the day just great sleeping weather right now for me lol. i can't believe tonight is the first night of football for high school it just seems like yesterday it was the last day of school and now we are less than two weeks away from school. 

updates

Well things have been on the up and downs in the last few weeks i have been sick and the doctors don't know why. I have been cramping and spotting and the pain got worse and worse. well they did ultrasounds ct scans and blood work and found nothing and keep telling me we don't know what is wrong well i just had another round of blood test this week and came back normal so at this point i go see a gi specialist to see what they decide to do and then at the end of the month i go see internal medicine doctor i had stopped eating glueten in my diet and i have been better if i eat it again i get sick so i don't know what the hell is going on...... well yesterday i had my last dental surgery so now i will be getting fitted for my partial which i should have by october which im excited about. school starts in 19 days which i looking forward to being back in college. the kids go back on the first and i think they are getting antsy about getting back to school or that fact starting a new school. 

having blood work done

well im going to have blood work done tomorrow....... well to bring everyone up to speed back in dec i had to be put on hormones because of heavy bleeding they thought it could have been endometriosis well now all of sudden in the last few weeks after months of no periods i have been spotting and cramping really bad well the doc looked into my chart about it because i had gained weight with these meds as well....... well she told me today to stop the meds and let my body bleed again but the blood work tomorrow is to check hcg levels the doc wants to rule out if there was a pregnancy or miscarriage well here is the ticker here I had my tubes tied back in 2009 after my youngest was born so hearing i need to have this done concerns me because not too long ago i had a dream that i was pregnant and didn't know it and then bam this starts up im nervous but im pretty sure im nervous for nothing. 

HOT HOT HOT

Hot Hot Hot....... Need i say more. well we are under heat warnings till thursday so naturally can't do really anything outside of a/c...... Well this weekend was a hot one needless say the picture above well the girls weren't here they were with their dad which they didn't get home till almost 9 tonight which really irritated that living piss out of me. well they spent the weekend in the cities. well last night me, dean and the girls went to the races never been to the races before i had a lot of fun being out there. tomorrow i go back to work for the week im actually looking forward to going part time this fall for a while just so i can get over stress but with school comes more stress. only a month and 7 days till school 

wedding planning

Wedding planning...... I never knew it could be so tough. The one dress i had fallen love with might be discontinued. which breakes my heart alittle because of the fact that this was the first dress i had fallen in love with. Looking tonight at some of things that me and Dean had looked at in the past is now a possibility that we can't get but i looked at other sites and found the same thing else where so that is a sign. then tonight a good friend of deans that had passed away his wife offered her wedding dress to me it makes me cry to think she wants to give me her dress she doesn't know me only through dean and she is offering her wedding dress to me it makes me so happy that i have a friend that wants to do that no one has ever did anything that nice for me ever. 

the night life

As Im sitting here watching tv just sitting here relaxing after a long day with work and remember the birthday of my beloved daughter Emmah. Going back in the my previous blog i had forgotten to mention in this chapter of life im learning struggles. 1 im learning to merge two different families into one family has been quite a challenge. I have to admit there are days when i want to throw in the towel but then i look back and thank my lucky stars that i have this family that i have to merge into one because if i didn't have this family it wouldn't make me stronger. I look into this last year and realize its had its up and downs but with the ups and downs they have come GREAT moments in this last year. 

Meeting the greatest man in my life i couldn't ask for nothing better. he is the greatest most wonderful man anyone can ask for. I still don't know how i got so lucky to have this man come into my life but i wouldn't change it for nothing. There are some days that i think this is all a dream and that im going to wake up alone and miserable. but then i realize its not a dream its all real and im not alone or miserable im happy. 

The book in my life

There has been a lot of chapters that have gone on in my life in the last 8 years.... I think alot of it needs to come out into the open about what is going on in my little world...... 


 It all starts 8 years ago a junior about to go into her senior year of high school has a drastic change happen to her..... She watches her first husband be shot by her own flesh and blood parents. I know WTF but yes its true this did happen. In the meantime while this was taking place i was also trying to prepare for a young child to come into this world. 


in the fall of 2003 i gave birth to my son Connor Irvin Braeden..... That was chapter 1 of my story the life of my son has just begun.


Chapter 2 of my life i got remarried to my now ex husband which that is another chapter. But with the marriage of my second husband came 8 months later the birth of my daughter Gabrielle in the summer of 2005. 


Chapter 3 a happy family till another tragedy struck our hearts in the summer of 2007 i lost my second daughter Emmah Anastasia Faith. She was born still on the 14th of july.... sadly that chapter didn't have a great plot because we never found out the cause of death to this precious angel...... 


chapter 4 drama prevails in the family....... my ex started cheating on me with my best friend while i was pregnant with my fourth child.... i was in a fragile condition in and out of the hospital and in the mean time he was running with her all over the place. after the birth of my 4th baby Keira.... my so called husband wanted to have me plus the other woman and so because i was selfish and said no he wanted to get a divorce well he wasn't sure what he wanted so he wanted to see how this relationship was going to go. in the mean time i went to live with my sister and started to get my life on my own..... when i had come back it was still drama but my husband was treating me like i was the mistress and needed to be kept hush hush. 


While this was going on i met the love of my life and decided after fighting for over 18months to get my marriage i had to decided to walk away from it and start my life over with someone else. 


Chapter 5 was the start of the new me...... In october of 2010 my divorce to my second husband was finalized i was relieved i wasn't stressed any more there was no competition and meeting my finace dean he showed me what it was like to be happy what is was like to be treated the way i should be treated. and now a year into our wonderful relationship we are planning a wedding for the 13th of july 2013 and a new chapter will begin.....